lazy_daze, for inviting me to Ask the Author! Hi, everyone.I've been interested in fanfiction before I knew it was called fanfiction, trawling Geocities and Angelfire for Mulder/Scully stories. I've been in a number of fandoms since then, Merlin and Narnia being the most recent before I stumbled into SPN. A lot of the themes that I explored in those fandoms followed me into this one: destiny angst, stranger in a strange land, caught between two worlds, troubled preoccupations with divinity, and complicated family loyalties.
Without a Map (gen, PG13, ~35.3k, Dean and Cas look for God together), the DCBB that I co-wrote with
jaimeykay, was for me an opportunity to write about many of my favorite things in one go: the God search, other pantheons challenging the Abrahamic apocalypse, landscape porn, Dean and Cas having adventures, and my home countries. Our outlining and writing process consisted of spamming each other with photos of beautiful scenery and captioning them with "AND THEN THEY GO HERE!!" The angels' ability to be anywhere and anytime is one of the reasons I'm drawn to the heaven/hell arcs. They open up the opportunity for me to write about things set in my backyard, so to speak. While Supernatural is known for its Americana, which I also enjoy, I like when fics have a sense of the world beyond the USA, especially in later seasons when the mytharc happens on a purportedly global scale. Jejak Kaki (gen, PG, ~600, season 1 AU) is a ficlet I wrote for Multifandom Racebending Revenge, which was a challenge created in the wake of the A:TLA movie getting whitewashed. In this ficlet, Sam and Dean are Indonesian immigrants in the USA. I don't usually tap into these parts of my brain (Indonesian POV part, fandom part) at the same time, and it was strange but fulfilling. Indonesia is a part of my identity that I have been raised not to expect stories for in my areas of interest, and writing about something so specific and personal in the context of SPN was unexpectedly empowering.
On the troubled divinity preoccupation front, there's If Thine Eye Offend Thee (Sam/Dean, R, ~3.9k, salvation), which I wrote after rewatching my favorite S2 episode, "Houses of the Holy". Sam's faith issues are understated in canon, so I like when fics explore it. Speaking of Sam things that don't get touched on much, I am a huge fan of the endverse (5x04 is my favorite SPN episode ever), and Sam doesn't tend to show up much in endverse fic, so I tried to remedy that with the following: Detours (Sam/Castiel, R, ~4.5k, the pitfalls of solitude) is a fic about Sam in the endverse before he said yes to Lucifer.
Continuing on the troubled divinity preoccupation front, I also tend to write a lot about the Novaks. I admit, Novaks are more of an exercise in conjecture. I tend to work from a set of headcanon that my friends and I have haphazardly collated, informed by our shared love of creepy unsettling things. What the Novaks provide for me are a compelling problem to explore and interesting tropes to fiddle with, and then we build around that until we have a story that on the surface appears loosely inspired by Where the Wild Things Are and a horror interpretation of Kahlil Gibran's "On Love". One of my favorite mental exercises when it comes to Novaks is Claire!Castiel. Even though Claire!Castiel only appeared on the screen for a minute, I became very fascinated by the idea and have spent thousands of words in commentfic contemplating the trauma. What would it look like for this incredible power to emanate from a young girl? Little Wing (gen, PG, ~1.3k, Uriel POV) is a short AU wherein Castiel's vessel has always been Claire. Fiat Lux (gen, PG13, ~2k, vessel angst) is the AUish futurefic where Jimmy doesn't know who he's jealous of more.
And now for something completely different. I don't usually usually write RPS and I don't tend to write porn. These are the reasons I assume Game On (Jared/Misha/Matt, NC17, ~4k, upbeat people having lots of sex) was written by mirrorverse!me. Seriously though, RPS is such a refreshing change after writing mostly SPN fic. I find it allows for a wider range of emotion and characterizations. Look at how many more shenanigans we can fit into a story when the world isn't at stake! Cool cool cool.
My masterlist is here. And now it's Q&A time! :D?